Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Elo readers....
Here i am....muhd aqhari....
Gonna blog soon....hahazz.....ryte nw.....
Hmmm......
My daes goes darker everytym.....
The light only appears for awhile bt soon darkness covers.....
Haish.....well i gotta accept it......
Its fated to be this way.......haish......
All i can do now is juz 2 hav lotz of patience to prevent any bad things from happening......
Im also currently feeling so much regretment in mie.......
Wad i did was juz so dumb.......y was i such a jerk......
Haish....i didnt meant it to happen diz way....haish.....
Wad i've done,hav make u suffer alot........
Itz all bcoz of mie.......im to blame for all this......
Well now im sure some of ure frenz muz hav start to hate mie.......
Well itz ouhkae for them to hate mie.....coz itz my fault after all.....
I guess from now on u muz hav lost trust in mie ryte?....haish......
Eventhough u hav forgiven mie....i still feel rili bad......
Coz of mie u suffer alot.......haish....wad hav u done aqh!!!......
I dunnoe where to put my face......I'm ashamed of myself........
Nw it feels like itz hard for mie to talk to u.......
Even calling out ure name was hard.......haish....
I feel dt im such a bad friend to u....n u would think the same thing.....
Haish.....dt is y i dont dare getting close to u........
I rili cant make the move........
How i wish i could be like dt good friend u once knew....
I wanted be dt friend again....but i dunnoe if u will giv mie dt chance......
I noe ure suffering.....i rili want to help u.....like the old tyms.....
I cant bare to see u like this....please giv mie e chance to redeem myself...haish....

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Friday, July 25, 2008

Here iam.....blogging...lol...
Hmmm......juz bored....so decided to blog......
Let's see.....haish....where shud i start....
Hmmmmm....ouhkaez.....
Here it goes........
This pass few daes my daes grows darker.......
Been having some problems lately.....haish.......
But i know i can handle it.....so dose ppl out dere....
Dose ppl who is reading my post.....dun worry......
Im gonna be ouhkae......I'll be strong no matter wad problems im about to face.....
Hmmm...also this pass few daes.....
i've been missing this friend of mine.....
Im also worried for this friend......haish.....
I've told my friend dt i woudn't bother her anymore......
Haish...y did i say it....hmmmm......
I read her blog.....n im even more worried for her......
It looks like her problem still not settle......
I noe e marks still dere in e heart.....her heart still hurts....
If only i could be there 4 her.....haish....bt im nt......
How i wish dt all her probs was on mie.....let mie handle her probs.....
Bt dt cant happen....she hav to do dis alone....i cud only advice her if i cud....

Heys,i noe ure still hurt..haish...but u hav to try 2b strong.....i noe u can...
I hav faith in u.....it takes tym....juz be patient....and never give up hope....
Coz hope will nvr be lost...trust mie on diz....u will overcome ure problems....
U will make it through.....so start wiping dose tears off from ure face.....
n put a smile on ure face instead......i still care about u....

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Monday, July 7, 2008

Here i am blogging.....

Haish......im juz feeling down......

Im nt myself.....wad hav i done?!......

I nvr knew it will end diz way or is dere more things dtz gonna happen?....

Bt one thing is 4 sure...i cant forgive myself 4 wad ive done.....

Eventhough u have forgiven mie,i still feel lyk bad bout myself....

U trusted mie n i let u down....

Ive broken ure promised.......haissh....

Am i good for nothing?!...am i......

I tink so.....im juz a useless fren 2b wif......

Itz always mie dt coz e trouble......ryte?....

Haish....i nvr knew i would hurt u in diz way.....

Y muz it b diz way......



To tell u e truth: All diz while,every single help dt i did was juz to show u hw much my feelings towards u are....Bt i guess u nvr see it.....i guess u are blinded by it....haish....wad can i do...lyk wad people sae,u dun always get wad u wanted most....and i tink dtz wad im facing.....bt no matter wad,i'll move n i will hide dose feelings i had4 u......

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Thursday, July 3, 2008

Here i am....
Haish....
Juz feeling down........
Im ashamed of myself.......
Why am i such a fool.......
Im repeating e same mistakes all over again....
Why won't i learn from my mistakes....WHY?!...haish.....
All i can do now is juz keep myself quiet.....
I hope he noez ure feelings towards hym one dae....
He will...SOON...hrmmm.......
Haish.....well datz all...
Juz hope 4 e best......

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